In the Spirit of Light by Fr. Demetrio Swanson
There is a story about a visitor to Mt. Athos who came across a monk building a large stone wall. As the visitor observed the monk, he began to doubt that the wall could ever be finished. He said this to the monk. The monk replied that it mattered not in the least if he ever finished, because someone after him could do it. More importantly, he said, God had allowed him to labor in this part and it was his blessing to do that. The rest was up to God. It is God’s.
I was expressing to someone recently the strong feeling that “things are not as they should be”. This is that same awe at the immensity of a task like that stone wall that cannot be finished. We might also experience this feeling toward the growing darkness in the world around us. Maybe we feel that everything is falling apart and we cannot keep the pieces up. What can we do?
St. Porphyrios says: “Forget the darkness. Leave it alone. Fill yourself with Light, and the darkness loses its very existence. Water the Good and the evil withers from neglect.”
St. Seraphim of Sarov says, “Acquire the Spirit of Peace and thousands around you will be saved.”
So, what can we do? Focus on doing what we are supposed to do today, right now, and leave the rest up to God. It’s His. Focus on our current task, the simple things we are supposed to do moment by moment, and leave the rest up to God. I love the Greek saying, “Exei O Theos,” or, “God has it.”
This is the way of the saints, the way of that monk on Mt. Athos building the wall.
There is a priest I heard about who would end every day with the prayer: “My Lord, I have done everything I can for Your Church today. But it is Your Church, and I’m going to bed.” I modify this slightly and usually end my day saying, “My Christ, in my weakness I have done everything I can for Your Church today. But it is Your Church, and I’m going to bed.”
What does all this mean? It is all Christ’s. We do our part, we do what we are supposed to day by day and then we see the miracles of God, the perfect working of all things, our humble labors being transformed. Our nothing, our many “zeros” of effort turn into millions when God places a “one” in front of all the seeming “nothing” we have done. That is from St. Paisios.
This orphanage is God’s. This chapel is God’s. This new temple we are building in Rosarito is God’s. This “ranch” community and neighborhood is God’s. This building of homes is God’s.
It is all His.
As the resident priest I encourage all of us to make a good effort to do our tasks given us each day, and then let it go. Finish our tasks, our battle each day, and take refuge in the Lord of the tasks. The Lord of everything.
Who loves us.